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MY STORY AS A HOMOSEXUAL
Few months back, I was disturbed about my sex lifestyle, I felt awkward being rejected by men around, I grew up loving men and having this sexual urge for men especially the fair ones.
People noticed me because the way I walk is feminine, I couldn’t keep it any longer, I became depressed. At work I was isolated and I was lucky that I was not caught in the act, if not I would have been dealt with. Most times I wished I was out of the country, at least in western countries there is freedom of sex orientation and lifestyle without judgment.
At some point, I felt like talking to someone who will keep it a secret without being judgmental, I have actually had sex with five men since I was born but I lost contact with some of them when I got admission.
One day I made a decision of getting help, I went to a pastor who told me it was a demon and he prayed for me and gave me some spiritual assignment which I did, hoping to get better but few days later, I saw a fair handsome guy and I was aroused.
At this point I came to a conclusion with myself that this was beyond just praying so I had to use google to search for a way out, I saw alot of articles but they were not helping me.
I spent so much money in getting goodies for men I liked, I cared for them so as to get their attention, at some point I became weak, I had to talk to one of my friends and asked if she knows any professional therapist that can help a depressed person, I was not too direct because I didn’t want her to start making me feel worse than I was already feeling. She referred me to a website @ www.thesolacezone.com
I logged on to the website, paid a token for session and I received an email for my assigned therapist. The session was online and I had to pay for a month. My session with the therapist was very helpful, I was very plain with the therapist.
The first stage of the session was collection of data from past to my present life, I doubted so much that my past life had a full play in my present situation but my counselor explained and made me understand that it was not my fault.
My cousin (male) who came to our house for holiday when I was little always used my ass as a robbing object for his dick. It continued to a stage when his dick could pierce my ass, my parents were not always around and this occurred several times, he was very caring and I saw nothing wrong in what he was doing. This and many others were my discussion with my therapist, we had many sessions. In summary, for the past two months, I have been having healthy feelings for the opposite sex, my first time of having sex with a woman was not actually enjoyable because the person in question was complaining that I didn’t last long, I had to run back to my therapist for help.
At this period, I was so concerned about how to satisfy a woman as my thinking about having sex with men has changed.
During my session with my counselor about how I can satisfy women, I learnt a lot of things and I was also referred and asked to run some test, I received help.
How I regained my self-esteem with the first girl will be a story for another day.
Thanks @ The confidants solace zone
www.thesolacezone.com
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